Hiding The Pain

Are you one of those people who is positive most of the time? Are you the person people come to when they have a problem or concern? The person who is always there for everyone anytime?

It is funny how that works, isn’t it? If someone needs you, no worries. You are there. You can build them right up again if they are beating themselves up. 

What about you? Do you do that for yourself?

Or are you more likely to hide your own pain so well you don’t even remember you have it. It’s there but you gloss over it quickly so it isn’t an issue – until it is.

This is what I do. I always have a smile on my face. I am  available if anyone needs me.

I have always been a sensitive person. When I was growing up, I was told I needed to “harden up” and not be so sensitive. This was how my parents were raised. They were just trying to protect me.

I started to build a wall around my heart to protect myself – or so I told myself.

It worked for me most of my life, or did it?

I was so afraid of getting hurt, I never really opened myself up to completely give. I could easily forgive but at the same time, felt I had to protect my heart. Love doesn’t really work that way.

I only recently realized I was doing this.

I had been hurt but forgave. I then realized I had not let this person in very deep for a long time. She had hurt me before. The thought of completely opening myself up scared me. I was surprised at this reaction. It terrified me. I then knew if I was to get past this protection mode I put myself in, I would have to open up to her.

Love flows both ways. I needed to let her in for me to move past the hurt. I needed to do this to  move forward – not just with her but with other people as well.

I am not going to tell you once I did this, all was rainbows and unicorns. It is a process. I am still working through it.

I also want to mention I did this for me, not for her. Forgiveness helps me move forward.

I am thankful my Heal Your Life® training helps me every day.  It works as long as we do.

We are constantly evolving and learning.

I like the artichoke analogy. We keep peeling  back the layers until we get to the heart.

It’s time to peel back another layer.